Phir Se...

14-Nov-24

It's been a month since my last post, and it's not because of my procrastination. I have been writing a piece, but it's meant for someone else. I will share it here, hopefully, if everything goes according to plan.

It's 05:19 currently, and I was feeling uneasy as usual, so I opened up Google Docs and started writing about how I normally feel when the night sets in. My relationship with the night is very complicated; I hate it, but I also want it to stay for some reason. There's just something about it that calms me and clears my head of suppressed thoughts. Anyway, enjoy the poem, and let me know how you feel when it gets dark and the sky is filled with scattered stars.

Phir aagai hai woh bin bulai raat

Mere akelepan ka ahsaas aur andhere ke saath

Phir se jaagegi tamanna kisi se baat karne ki

Phir se meri aankhein zid karengi kisi pe marne ki

Phir se main dusron ki guftugoo sunke jalunga

Phir se main tanha kyon hoon yeh khud se kahunga

Phir se main namumkin khwaab dekhne ki karunga bhool

Phir se main nakaam koshish karunga khud ko rakhne ki mashgool

Phir se main chhat pe jaake akela tehlunga

Phir se main yeh dard chup chaap sehlunga

Phir se main jhooti kahaniyan parhke apna dil behlaunga

Phir se main pyaar main haara hua kehlaunga

Phir se main karunga kisi ke milne ki duaien

Phir se mazak uraiengi mera guzarti hawaien

Phir bhi main karunga is raat ka phir se intezaar

Kyonki iski ab aadat hochuki hai mujhe chaahe main karlun jitna inkaar