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  • Sep 15, 2025
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15 Sept, Monday 05:58, 2025

Love is not everything or is it?



In the end, I want it to be a love story. As I grow older, life's blunt tragedy keeps shoving down my imaginative side in a dark pit. I find my self refraining from fantasizing about silly love stories and hoping for a happy ending. My ultimate goal of falling in love has been maliciously replaced by becoming financially stable and self sufficient. I naively used to think that If I succeed in finding love then everything else will follow along. But now life has taught me that If I succeed in finding money and stability only then everything else will follow, even love.

Am I wrong to think this way? Am I being too pessimistic or too pragmatic? I don't know. How can anyone fall in love with me, If I'm not financially independent. How can anyone come and live with me, If I don't have my own residence. How can anyone respect me, If I'm not self sufficient. How can anyone accept me with so many flaws.

Despite this constant turmoil in my head, I still want everything to be about love. I want all my actions and goals to be directed to finding love. I want to fantasize and imagine about falling in love. I just want someone to take my hand and stay with me forever.

I feel guilty for distracting myself with these unrealistic dreams. Not to worry, life will force me again into discipline.

Or maybe there is someone- hahaha nevermind, I'm being silly again.


 
 
 

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2 Comments

Guest
Oct 29, 2025

Somehow I can relate it with you that I can love someone when I fully independent like financially stable although I'm a girl but I want my life to be stable I'm struggling now for my better future, if I stuck in my love thoughts than I would never do anything good in my life, I think I will always distract..but as you said this distraction has another kind of joy but ,I think we should leave this fantasy for better tomorrow... because I know that Allah SWT wrote someone better for me so why I am thinking on it If we should follow the commands of Allah he will give us everything which is better for us..just believe …

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aminquraishii
Oct 30, 2025
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That's a very beautiful mindset MashaAllah. I've also adapted this way of thinking. Whatever Allah has decreed for me is the best for me. I just pray to get whatever is best for me in this world and in the hereafter InshaAllah. Rizq is in the hands of Allah only, we just have to pray and work hard. We will not get less nor more than what has been written for us.

May all your prayers get answered InshaAllah. Thanks for your comment!

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