Stagnation

16-Nov-2024,

It's 05:22, I lied down to sleep but Fajr was half an hour away so I decided to stay up.

I realized that I have stopped writing and reading completely. So I opened the Notes app and started writing without any planned thoughts or ideas. I just wrote what I was feeling. As I started writing, it became obvious that this will be a very negative poem. Maybe it's the lack of sleep which caused me to write these words or perhaps that's how I am really feeling currently.

Anyway, how are you people? Also, please let me know in the comments how do you deal with your mistakes and life's ups and downs.

Now I am going to pray Fajr and then sleep InshaAllah.

Good night and enjoy the poem :).

Have I run out of words to write?

Even my dreams seem to be out of my sight

My procrastination has hindered my reading

Perhaps that's why my vocabulary is receding

As of yesterday I was brimmed with motivation

But now it's suppressed under my cowardice's captivation

I always yearned to live independent

Yet I am an albatross around people's necks like a burdened pendant

My most implored prayer was to find love

Now it's buried forever with my hope's shove

Every year starts with success teasing me

However it ends up showing what a failure I am to be

To the world, I deceitfully feign to be holier than thou

Underneath, even my sins, bemused by my lies, ask me how?