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Sep 12
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Saturday Sept 12, 2026 03:57.


Why can't I find her? Every time I get the feeling that she might be the one, I somehow end up pushing her away. Maybe it is karma for my actions, I don't know.

I have felt genuine connections but for some reason I pulled away and backed out. Do I have commitment issues or am I just sugarcoating the fact that I'm a terrible person who can't decide what he wants.

When I'm alone I sometimes regret my actions thinking have I lost the chance of ever meeting someone naturally and then falling in love with them? I honestly don't know. I haven't found out the answer to this question yet. For as long as I can remember I have always wanted a love marriage. Can I still achieve that goal? Only Allah knows better. I have already burned down the chances I got.

My plan is to get married InshaAllah by the end of this year. All I can do is pray that may Allah bless me with a love marriage. Aameen. Is there still a chance to find her?

Now I'm walking back to my home. Allah Hafiz.


 
 
 

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